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What is truth? John 18:38

As we celebrate resurrection Sunday, this question is ringing in my mind.

Though it absolutely pertains to me, this is truly the “million dollar question.”

What is truth? Pilate asked this in his conversation with Jesus. Unbeknownst to him, he was standing right beside truth, Jesus, Truth in the flesh.

I am not a mathematician, nor a physicist, but looking at this site, Fulfilled Prophecy: Evidence for the Reliability of the Bible, what Hugh Ross has done seems ok, so I’ll leave the rest up to you and the Holy Spirit.

What is truth?

The more I seek truth through bible study, both of Scripture and topical, the more I understand, I don’t understand.  I like to have answers, I like to know that I know. And I believe this is a stumbling block for me and for many others in this world like me.

I believe Jesus is who He says he is. I believe that the Bible is a history book meant to teach us, guide us, into a life that is lived for Jesus, growing into His likeness, to His glory and our joy. That though I am in this world here on earth, my real home, my ultimate place of dwelling will be in Heaven with Jesus and the saints who have arrived before me. “In My Father’s house are many rooms; if that were not so, I would have told you, because I am going there to prepare a place for you.” John 14:2

The more I study and learn, the more I live, the more I see my lack of faith and understanding, and how much of the world truly is within me. “…Lord, I believe, help my unbelief!” Mark 9:24

The reason I say this is because of my response to stressors in my life, regardless of what they are. 

Elements of life that don’t go as I would like them. Finances, projects, relationships, use of time, my own sanctification, just to name a few.

We are called to steward all of these elements of our life and more and not to be sluggards. Not under our own power or understanding, but under His, which He reveals in His perfect timing.

There is depth to real truth. There is depth to living out real truth. For truth isn’t real unless it is pure, holy, and undefiled.  

Just how much of the world do I have in me?

The world in me is the bitter root that needs to be ripped out. Hebrews 12:15  I wish it were all at once, however, for me, this is the process of sanctification, and it is happening, though much slower than I would prefer.

I experienced a medical event a few years ago called syncope.  It was caused by stress and anxiety from my work place. I left that workplace, however, I still suffer from its impact and my stress and anxiety, though better, hasn’t fully left. I trigger much more easily. This is curious, as I had never experienced anything like this out of 34 years of law enforcement, Marine Corp and Police Department time combined.

But, the more I seek Him, while He may be found, Isaiah 55:6, He is faithful and draws near. James 4:8

This weekend’s message by Pastor Sammy Foster really hit home. In its most simple form, Jesus gives us peace, John 14:27, purpose, John 20:21, and power, John 20:22.

And He died on my cross, paying my debt, so that He could provide everything I could ever truly want and need.



At 1:47 I finish “Created.” (prior post)

At 1:50 I post it on FaceBook.

At 3:19 I receive the call from our

Church about them majorly blessing us

For our adoption.

It literally brings me to tears at my office.

This evening, while preparing for a harvest,

(The processing of 62 chickens raised specifically for meat)

I am having a conversation with a couple of brothers about


It’s 11:26 and I should be sleeping.

I can not.

Sabaktanei is Aramaic for the word forsaken.on the cross.

It is a word within the last words of Christ before He dies on the cross.

He died for me.

He died for you.

It is used 63 times in Scripture within the New American Standard Bible.

I have not checked it’s specific usage in each portion of Scripture.

In less than six hours I go from created, to blessing, to hell.

There is NO coincidence in life. None.




We are created by Him, for Him, through Him. Colossians 1:16-17

We are blessed by Him, for Him, through Him.

Hell is to be Sabaktanei by Him.





Forsaken by the Creator.

Blessings withheld by the Creator.

Hell without the Creator.


Some of you are in hell right now.

You do not know Him.

You have not love. True love.

It is not a love like the world loves.

It is vastly different.

If you have not love, you have not God. 1 John 4:8

We do not love as the world loves.

We love as we have been shown love.

A sacrificial love.

A love so deep.

A love so wide.

A love so vast.

That it cost a life.

The life of Christ, the only begotten son of God.

His love is the only perfect love.

For me.

For you.

So that,

We love as He has loved us. (As imperfect as we are)

To His glory

For our joy

A life blessed in His presence.

Because anything other than that,

Is a life Sabaktanei.

A life forsaken,

A life without God.

Please read Isaiah 55:6-7.