Monthly Archives: November 2016

Matters of the heart…

If there’s one thing that takes a beating in this world, it’s our heart. I’m not just talking about my own heart, but also the heart of those I hurt.

We are heading into difficult territory. In revisiting who I was, my many lacks and inadequacies, as well as my many failures, I’m finding them difficult to write, mostly because it involves other people and the pain I’ve caused them.

So, first and foremost, let me ask forgiveness from those I hurt, took advantage of, manipulated, lied to, and/or any other manner of wickedness in how I may have hurt you.

I truly am sorry for who I was and how I impacted your life. You deserved better, and better I was not.

It is 1985 and I met the mother of my son. We were young and in love. Yes I loved her, and yes I still do. She is the mother of my son. If you read this post, you will have a better understanding of what I mean when it comes to love. But please wait for the future post on love, because this is not the end, but the beginning. Let me also be clear that there are no mistakes, only decisions made. The only regrets that I have is the pain that I have caused others throughout the course of my life.

We were living in Ohio at the time we got pregnant. I use we, as most of the time we read “she”, and it wasn’t just her decision, it was our decision. I did not give my decision to have a child the right amount of forethought, because now I have a child and his mom and her son to provide for. I am in trade school, working at a pizza shop, which was not sufficient to support my family, which was totaling four, including me. Our baby has a brother. Her son, who I consider my son and is a man I am proud of and am better for having him in my life, than not. I love both of my sons and the men they have become. 

As a means to support my family I joined the United States Marine Corp.

Our life’s journey is entering a new season! 

Food for thought…

There are 365 days in the year. 

There are 8,760 hours in a year. 

How much one on one time are we giving Jesus?

If you are struggling, you must make more time with Jesus. 

Balance the scales of life with Him. 

Seriously. Read God’s Word more. Talk with Him more. Spend more time with Jesus and less time in and of the world. 

I’m done listening to and about the presidential candidates and everyone’s opinion. 

I want God’s opinion. 

I listen to God’s Word while I’m driving more than I listen to anything else. I add some worship music sometimes, but mostly it’s the Word. 

He has calmed my spirit and given me peace. 

state of the union

As I see the state of our nation and the world around us grow more and more depraved it leaves a pit in my stomach.

The only thing I have found that is adequate enough to fill this pit is God’s word and prayer.

A paraphrase of John 17:16 tells us to be in the world, but not of the world.

Much like the Israelites of the Old Testament, they were told to conquer the inhabitants of their promised land. This seems pretty harsh, yes, but God also knew that if they did not, they would be influenced in a way that would not glorify God.

So, though we are not to conquer our neighbor, we are to love them as ourselves.

That, however, is putting the cart before the horse.

The commandment prior to that one is to love the Lord our God, pretty much with everything we have and are!  These are found in Matthew 22.

Why is this so very important?

Because many people are betting on people on Nov. 8th when they should be believing in the One our Father in heaven sent.

I’m not saying to vote or not to vote, but by keeping a vertical gaze  it will help to keep you from stumbling while walking horizontally.